I’m currently working on looking at my beauty in terms of my character, and not on how I look. I think for a long time I placed so much of my beauty on my looks and what I was wearing.Thinking like this doesn’t help me because I’ve realized that even when I thought I looked “beautiful”, I was still critical of myself and I still felt “ugly. So from today onward I have made the conscious decision to do something different. I say affirmations about other qualities of myself and tell myself that I am much more than the beauty standards that have been set for me by society. This has to be one of the biggest lessons that I am learning to date. I am learning that most people will look at your looks and define you by that, but there is much more to me than my looks and if someone fails to see this it has nothing to do with me. Finding beauty on the inside and really getting in touch with my soul is one of the best things that I have ever done for myself. Let’s do this together!
I am beautiful on the inside
I am learning
I am wonderful
Thank you for reading. Until next time.
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One of the reasons that I created this blog was because I wanted to tell my story on my terms. I didn’t want to be defined by other people and put myself in a box. I fell in the most public way possible and everyone had something to say about it and I am pretty sure some people still have something to say about it today. Everyone had different opinions about what caused my psychosis. I allowed these people to have opinions of what happened to me for a really long time. I was so ashamed of my disease that I kept allowing them to speak for me. I now want to create a place where I can open up about who I am as a person and some of the struggles I still face today instead of having other people speak for me. People will always have their opinions, but at the end of the day the opinions that matter the most in the whole world is your own. People will do and say a lot of things to try to tear you down. I have decided to give myself a voice and to allow myself to be heard on my own terms.
I deserve to be heard
I have a voice
I am loved
Thank you for reading. Until next time
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The most important person that you need understanding from is and always will be yourself. It is easy to look outward and want understanding from other people. I am trying to challenge this thought process of always looking to other people to understand me. Sometimes I feel like no one understands me. During times when I feel like this, I try not to suffer and I do something very different. I look to myself for the understanding that I wish I had from those around me. I dig deep into my heart and soul and figure out what I need at that particular time. Sometimes I need a love poem from myself, other times it is a nice treat or whatever else I feel like doing at that particular time. Turning inwards is my solution when I feel misunderstood because understanding ourselves is the most important thing we could ever do.
I am understanding myself
I deserve to understand myself
I love myself unconditionally
Thank you for reading.Until next time.
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It is very hard to take care of yourself in this go go go society that we live in. Everyone is much more focused on getting things done than making sure they have taken the time to take care of themselves. I used to be this way two until a year and a half ago. I neglected myself to the point where I finally cracked and experienced an episode of psychosis. I believed that everything needed to get done right away and that I could sleep and rest when those things got done. I lost sight of who I was and the world that we currently live in was no longer my reality. The episode of psychosis was my wake up call. I took time off of school and decided to spend time learning how to truly take care of myself. I developed ways that I learned how to cope with life in a while different way. I tossed away my philosophies and decided to adopt new ones. I learned that sleep was an important aspect of my day to day life. I also learned that I can’t do it all. There were some things that had to give up- late nights for example. Now that I am recovered and back in school, self-care is still a bit of a struggle for me. I am so used to being on the run that I sometimes forget that I need to take time to take care of myself because I matter too. I now have a schedule where I have to schedule in myself care so that I can actually take care of myself throughout the day. What are some of the struggles you face with taking care of yourself?
I love taking care of myself
I am growing each and everyday
Thank you for reading.Until next time
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I never used to understand why I always heard people say that love starts with self because for many years I never had a good relationship with myself. I always thought that someone would enter my life and show me what love meant. This thinking stopped when I learned about self love.Self love is one of the hardest and most challenging things I have had to conquer. I had to get to a place where I realized that I was worth the hard work. I had to learn that I was worth being kind to myself and was quite deserving of it. I started by changing the way that I spoke to myself. I realized that I deserved to be spoken to the same way I speak to other people. I speak to other people with kindness and respect, so why shouldn’t I speak to myself in the exact same way? I am as much of a person as everyone else and I truly deserve to treat myself with love and respect. I stopped calling myself stupid,dumb,etc and starting focusing on my positive qualities. This is much easier said than done, don’t get me wrong for as the saying goes “old habits die hard”. It took a lot of time to stop speaking to myself this way and to be honest, I still struggle with it some days. I have days where I have to tell myself “please don’t speak to me like that” because I know that i don’t deserve to be spoken to with disrespect, especially from myself because I live in me and if I don’t have a healthy relationship with myself, how can I have a healthy relationship with other people. Everyday I make the commitment to love and truly honor who I am as a person.
I am in love with myself
I value myself
I am learning about myself each and everyday
Thank you for reading.Until next time.
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