STARTING COUNSELLING

Starting counselling was one of the scariest things things I have ever done. I grew up thinking that talking about one’s struggles was a sign of weakness. I believed that if you let even the slightest bit of yourself show, things will go south. I didn’t trust anyone. I was 18 years old and away at College when I began  to realize that I needed help. I had lived a life of constant concealment that I almost forgot that I was human. It was scary trusting a stranger, but to this day I believe that going to counselling was one of the best things I have ever done for myself. I had to get to a place where  I  truly allowed myself to be seen by someone. I had to open up and finally learn who I was as a  person. This has really helped me learn how to open up in all of my other relationships as well. Concealing is not a healthy coping mechanism and it is important for us to let ourselves be seen by those that care about us, including ourselves. Counselling has been very beneficial to my growth and my healing and I am happy I took the risk of allowing myself to be seen.

I deserve to be seen for who I am

I am loveable

I am beautiful inside and out.

Thank you for reading.Until next time

 

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TELL YOUR OWN STORY

One of the reasons that I created this blog was because I wanted to tell my story on my terms. I didn’t want to be defined by other people and put myself in a box. I fell in the most public way possible and everyone had something to say about it and I am pretty sure some people still have something to say about it today. Everyone had different opinions about what caused my psychosis. I allowed these people to have opinions of what happened to me for a really long time. I was so ashamed of my disease that I kept allowing them to speak for me. I now want to create a place where I can open up about who I am as a person and some of the struggles I still face today instead of having other people speak for me. People will always have their opinions, but at the end of the day the opinions that matter the most in the whole world is your own. People will do and say a lot of things to try to tear you down. I have decided to give myself a voice and to allow myself to be heard on my own terms.

I deserve to be heard

I have a voice

I am loved

Thank you for reading. Until next time

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THE PROBLEM IS HOW I SPEAK TO MYSELF

I recently had some terrible criticism the other day and even though I knew that it wasn’t true, it stung deeply. I spend the whole day ruminating over the comment and thinking about it over and over again. It really hurt. After some reflection, I realized that the comment hurt yes, but I kept ruminating over it because of some of the things that I have told myself in the past. I used to say some pretty unkind things to myself and there are some days today where I have to tell myself not to speak to myself that way. So, sometimes when someone speaks to me in the way that I used to speak to myself, it is a trigger for me. It reinforces some of the old thoughts that I used to have about myself. I start believing that since I believed it before, it mus be true because the other person has said it. Not everything that we think is true, and just because someone loves you doesn’t mean that their criticism is always true.

I am healing

I am recovering

I am growing

Thank you for reading.Until next time

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COUNTING THE SMALL VICTORIES

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day and while we were talking, she mentioned the importance of acknowledging the small victories. She said that people have a tendency of focusing on the big victories and the  big victories are the only ones we consider to be accomplishments. We tend to forget the small steps that are going to help us get to where we need to be.Getting up in the morning,taking a shower,brushing your teeth, and exercising are all examples of things that are small victories that can take you very far.This is such a new perspective for me because i’m learning to acknowledge even the tiniest steps that I take towards my health,recovery,and being the best version of myself. Even if other people don’t always see these things as victories,they are victories to me and that is the most important thing. She also mentioned that it is important to celebrate how far you have come because that is where the growth lies. So thank you girl, I learned  new perspective.

I am learning

I am growing

I am exploring

Thank you for reading. Until next time.

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HEALING

I have said this before to my friends and family, but it is finally time to start healing and letting go. This is the year where I will continue on the lifelong journey of forgiving those that have hurt me and forgiving myself for the hurt that I have inflicted on others. It is time for me to move with my life and finally become the person that I am supposed to be. Forgiveness is essential to growth and I cannot continue to grow if I do not learn to forgive others. I have to become the best version of myself and this will begin when I learn how to love other unconditionally without any hatred in my soul. It is time for  me to let go so that I can finally become the best version of myself. I have to move on and allow myself to heal. This is going to be the hardest thing for me to achieve. I recognize that by forgiving others and myself, I will be doing what has been asked of me as a human being. I will also be taking care of myself and learning to move on with my life. It is time for me to be the best person that I can be. It is time for me to move on and let go. It is time for me to finally allow myself to have the peace of mind that I deserve.

I am learning

I am growing

I am healing

Thank you for reading. Until next time

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